someone elses story

Im so scared.

Posted on May 12, 2012 at 12PM • permalink

I dont even know where to begin honestly. It hasn’t even been a month and im so attached. it so scary to know that someone else is in control of how you feel. with one wrong move my whole world could come crashing down all around me. This is what ive wanted for so long, and now that im here again. back at the beginning. i feel like im on the beginning of a roller coaster. were just going up that hill. each foot getting more and more exciting. and hes there next to me holding my hand. but im afraid that when we get to the top. hes going to let go. and im going to be there grabbing on for dear life, alone. everyone before quit. and they realized things were better without me, and im really scared of that happening again. REALLY SCARED. the feeling of someone having control of your happiness basically is terrifying.

Its been 4 days now.

Posted on Apr 24, 2012 at 12AM • permalink

you haven’t even made a single effort. if you were really my best friend, you would have apologized. this is high school bullshit and i’m fed up. if you want to act like a high schooler and talk badly about the one person who’s there for you threw thick and thin be my guest but the next time you need something take another look. your just fooling yourself. i wish you would stop caring about what everyone else thinks. and do your own thing. its so annoying always being judged. i’ve accepted my flaws and i live with them, and you just cover them up and make fun of others, i’m sorry but i’m not okay with that. i’m pissed off and i have nothing to apologize to you for. so lets see how long this lasts. you yell at me for leaving, and for posting things on the internet, but here you are doing the exact same thing, except i’m not calling you immature. or talking badly about you. i guess that just shows our difference in character. hopefully you step up and take responsibility for your actions soon.